Life Uncensored

The tag for this site is “Celebrating Life as a Former JW.” I realize that not all I’ve written is about celebrating my life in the moment, and may at times drift toward a tendency to rehash old stories and experiences. Today, I want to share what I am most grateful for, which is the ability to live a life uncensored! I am beholden to no one! No one can tell me what to believe, why to believe or how to believe anything. Let me be clear, I do believe in God, but I am not a follower of any religion. True, I have on occasion visited a church to receive an inspiring message or watched Joel Osteen on a few Sunday mornings (oh boy, now I am really “out of the truth!”), but I do not believe that God is to be found in only one place. I have a one-on-one, personal relationship with God that no one manages but me!

When I write about living life uncensored, I don’t mean I’m walking around naked or going about shouting obscenities at random strangers. I do not live my life in a way that ever causes harm to anyone. In fact, I’m most comfortable giving to others, whether that be giving blood or working in a soup kitchen for the homeless, something a Jehovah’s Witness would not and could not ever do. My life is uncensored in that I don’t need anyone’s “literature” to help me gain a better understanding of, or relationship with God, and I don’t need to be guided or directed by other men and women. I certainly don’t need to be chastised for falling out of line with anyone’s directives.That’s not freedom.

I don’t believe that God is a manipulator of outcomes or that our lives are “predestined” (a most depressing and hopeless thought indeed). My life is what I make it, my “luck” comes from being prepared for every opportunity that comes my way. I may at times pray silently or out loud for God to guide me, or to help me find peace during a very difficult period, but I never ask to be “fixed” or ask God to “jump in” and take care of anything directly. If God was always pulling the strings I would be nothing more than a captive puppet, a victim of circumstances, weak and fearful of the unknown. I pride myself on the free will and free mind that I have too much to ask someone to do for me what I should be doing myself.

With living a life uncensored comes responsibility and accountability. I am answerable to myself for my actions. If my life isn’t working out the way I’d like it, well, that’s on me to find a way to right the situation. I will not wait on God or any other supreme being to come in and make me a better person. That’s my job.

 

Author: Separated From The Flock

This site was established to share insights and experiences with individuals who may at one time been involved with authoritarian or controlling groups or people. All are welcome to both comment on and question what has been written.

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